Being a hopeless romantic
sucks.
I'm Kaleigh.
RSS“Where have the times gone? Baby, it’s all wrong. Where are the plans we made for two? If happy ever after did exist, I would still be holding you like this. All those fairy tales are full of SHIT. One more FUCKING love song, I’ll be sick.”
Haha, happy ever after? What is that and where can I get some of it?
I feel like
I’m not good enough
I’m not pretty enough
I’m not smart enough
I’m not “chilled out” enough
For anyone.
Can I just say…
It’s a terrible feeling. :(
Hahahahahahaha, Jason would laugh sooooo hard at this. xDDD
This
Depressed, hopeless, lonely feeling has returned… Yet again.
One thing I hate about being SO young
Especially when you like a guy who is 22
I feel like I don’t and won’t fit in with everyone else
He’s, yeah, kinda a lot older than me
And most of his friends are his age, some a little younger, some a little older
And I know I already don’t act my age, I act a lot older
But if/when they found out I’m only nineteen?
They wouldn’t wanna hang out with me
Which might make him not want to hang out with me
URGH!
Why couldn’t I have been born a few years earlier? :/
Seriously
Fighting back tears right now. Everything that I thought was getting better is apparently only getting worse. Both of my roommates are moving out and I can’t find anyone else to move in. I had two different people tell me they would and then both backed out. I know I can’t afford rent on my own. Especially not next month’s. And I’m so low on money that I have nothing to eat and barely any money for gas. And now one of my kittens is scarily sick. And besides all that, how I thought I would be happy has just fallen down the drain. WHY is it so hard to live? Seriously? People grow up, move out, live on their own all the time. Why is it so hard for me? I can’t handle all this. It seems like everyone is turning their backs on and against me. So I have no one…
So very happy
Right now. Things are finally going so great. Maybe it is true, the saying that things have to get worse before they get better. Because things are so amazing right now. I can’t wait to see where this will take me. :D
“Find
“Someone that isn’t afraid to admit that they miss you.
“Someone that knows you’re not perfect, but treats you as if you are.
“Someone who couldn’t imagine losing you.
“Someone who gives their heart to you, completely.
“Someone who says, ‘I love you,’ and proves it.
“Last, but not least, find someone who wouldn’t mind waking up next to you in the morning, seeing your wrinkles and grey hair, and still falls in love with you, all over again.”
Sad thing is, you had all of this. Had it for fourteen days short of four years. Even when I didn’t have it in return. You had it. And you gave it all up.
Right now
Is one of those times when I wish I could go to sleep… And never wake back up…
For two years, all you did was use and abuse me. Tell me you love me and then turn around and destroy me. You tore my heart to pieces and now I’m left with nothing. You tried to “make it better” by actually getting back with me. But all you did was keep going behind my back and lying to me. Am I not good enough for you to tell the truth to me? Am I not good enough for you to treat me the way you did back when we were IMMATURE and in high school? We’ve both grown up since then, and it seems as if all you did was rewind. You treated me better when you were sixteen than now, when you are twenty. It doesn’t make any sense to me! I have reminders that I deal with on a DAILY basis, of both the good and bad times, and all they do is make me wanna cry. Because I have absolutely no idea what to do. I’m in love with the old you. And it’s obvious he’s never gonna come back. But how do you get over someone you’re in love with when they’re RIGHT THERE?! Hidden, masked, sheltered under some built up wall that no one will ever break down again. That’s where he is. It’s the wall, the mask, that is the problem. I can’t love someone like that. He took away the one I love. And I fought him for years to give him back to me. But all it has done is destroy me and tear me down. So now all I can ask is, what do you want from me?
I can’t breathe.
About I'm Kaleigh.
"Callie." 19. 2 jobs. 13 tattoos and 14 piercings. Love my life. :)
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